OASIS
Cover Art by K. Sandanayake
A Name, by Abigail Jennings (10)A name is such a funny thing
So tangled up with familiarity That the eyes skip past its letters The heart its beat Such a funny piece of identity So wholly mine Yet so un-mine I seem selfish For hoarding it For clutching it close to my chest For turning my head in its utterance In its wake My name is never mine, Not in the mirror Not in the bylines Not mine My name is only mine when my mother says it. She sets it alight As though she knows some secret about it Like it's a poem she's written that no one can quite decode But she knows it. She holds a key A cipher wheel She holds my name in the palm of her hand, With a gentle rocking, As though she can still nurse it, Like the child I can no longer be "Abby," she says, and of course I am. My Room, by Rose Berube (10)White walls and brown wood furniture, Pictures on the walls of moths and butterflies. The grand hanging tapestry with all those flowers on it, The deep blue blankets on the bed. A place of refuge, cool and dark When the rest of the world hurts my eyes with its brightness And shining warm and welcoming like a beacon in the night When the rest of the world seems to have fallen under shadow. An oasis from the crush of people And the crush of life alike. |
the sweet in between, by Nina Jones (9) i live in the sweet in between the before and after before I go wherever passed souls go after my body was buried my last ashes of life with it, too i live in the sweet in between but they tell me to go to the oasis that awaits me where old grief and love and memory linger no longer where i will never see her again i live in the sweet in between but they tell me that i am wasting my time here that peace and quiet are close by an eternal tranquility but seconds away i chuckle i tell them that i am the guardian of the sweet in between praying to keep her light out of my land i tell them that my smile grows wider every moment i spend here knowing that her heart still beats knowing that she is still safe knowing that she is not in the sweet in between and that i will be there when she does arrive so as they ask me once again if i will move on from the grief and love and memory of the earth down below i will tell them that this sweet in between is an oasis of my own. |
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The moon smiled at its desert from a vast milky, star-speckled sky. The wind stirred the silver dunes. Nestled below the earthy floor hid a small furry desert dweller. A sand cat in its burrow.
“Goodnight, sleep well, my friend,” whispered the moon, as the wind sang a soft lullaby. The gusts above were cool and arid. The cat sat curled in a ball of warmth, its body gently rising and falling. Her eyes swelled, pointed ears pivoted as she listened to the wind. She soon bowed her head and fell asleep to the desert’s song. Light peaked from the horizon as the moon slipped away. The cat perked up. Bobbing her head as she opened her eyes, she made her way outside, pupils narrowing with each step. She gazed out from her hollow home. A sand cat must awake before dawn. She sniffed the air. Her heart fluttered as she surveyed the world around her, bubbling with wonder. The cat’s ears swiveled as she heard the chorus of early birds. What might the birds have to say? thought the cat, eyeing the sky. “The twinkling oasis! It’s like no other!” sang the Arabian swallow swooping above. “It glows at night’s fall!” screeched the owl from the clouds. “A true wonder to behold! Have you seen the dazzling waves, the dancing palms, rocks touching the sky!” piped the warbler from its high perch. A twinkling oasis? What a spectacle that would be! Her tail shivered in excitement. |
Artwork by Divya Prakash
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Artwork by Abella Vasquez
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I would’ve given up. I would’ve given up my title, my status, my whole domain just to stay with the sun. To feel its warm rays along my skin, the light it brought to my face – I would give everything. Whatever he wanted.
As I stole a final blinding glance my whole body grew cold. The powerful figure stood above me, towering over my shivering body. There was nothing I could do. I knew I was overpowered and so did he, and took so much pride in it, almost too much. His lips pulled up in a smirk as he stroked his bearded chin. I could tell he was so pleased with himself, pleased to keep me away from my only strength and power. “Maybe next time you’ll think before you decide to rat me out, son.” Son. Funny. Was I ever really his son? I certainly never felt that way. I was just the other bastard he’d bore from an innocent, unwilling widow. My jaw clenched as I held back. (...) |
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I’ve never known peace before. Okay, that may be an exaggeration. I’ve had temporary moments of relaxation. Moments where it feels like the world stops spinning, where the wind blows through your hair at the right velocity, where you feel like you can leave all of your past behind. But, that feeling never lasts long. Sometimes, I suddenly get whipped back into the past where I’m reminded how I messed up the performance of a song in the first grade for a talent show, or the locks on my head get pushed forwards, causing strands of hair to fly into my mouth. And suddenly, you feel you’re at square one again; the land beneath your feet rattling.
I have tried everything in my power to give myself full peace, even if it’s just for a few hours — I'd be ecstatic I got a full day of calmness. I have tried to lay down on the grass in hopes to ride out the trembling ground, I’ve tried to close my eyes and breathe to forget about my surroundings, I’ve tried everything. Everything I could to calm the storm. Yet, the tremors beneath my feet never cease. They just continue on, and on, and on. Trying to find a solution to the quaking world I live in feels like dividing anything by zero: undefined, pointless. (...) |
Photo by Devin Caguioa
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Photo by Sadie Johnstone
All It Takes, by Sadie Johnstone (12) All it takes is a crowded room with voices overlapping
in waves of muffled noise to feel as though I am drowning – my brain oddly at comfort with the lull of the water pulling me under but my lungs screaming that it is terribly wrong All it takes to snap me out of this reverie is the realization that above the surface I am expected to make easy conversation, even when I am choking up mouthfuls of salted water, and would prefer plunging back into my muddled senses All it takes to feel as though I am a castaway is a room of people with voices chiming in and out but never pausing for a second in the rushing ocean of conversation – and there is nothing more to say All it takes for doubt to come knocking at my door is a fist hammering against my ribcage, terrified of making a mistake that will pry judging eyes my way – eyes that will scrutinize the flawed parts inside and find that there is an anomaly, something deathly wrong with me Yet all it takes for fear to be gently washed away in soft lapping waves that kiss the ends of my feet is for your eyes to meet mine. Then I am swimming in cerulean, your smile so unwaveringly certain leaving no room for desolate concern when I know I was destined to find each grain of sand in pools of blue All it takes is your hand holding mine, a stubborn grasp pulling me up for you to be a steady raft amid this storm, to be my lifeline keeping me afloat All it takes is your laughter drawing me in sending sparks of happiness to my synapses for my nervous neurons to believe I am seen to stretch the corners of my cheeks into a grin Through your eyes I am capable of breathing your eyes see me as treasure worth discovering eyes that have examined what lies inside yet chart each imperfection and virtue as golden All it takes is you insisting I am precious stone, to have the clearest evidence that I am blessed to be known. |
Artwork by Tobias Dorsemane
For Patrick, by Daisy Benson (9)sand wedges itself between your toes, the frigid water above your hips, I’ve avoided the sand thus far, perhaps I could have lasted forever, though something within you draws me towards the fearsome grains, the sand and soft rocks you traversed with ease debilitating me, worries of bugs and jagged edges and the inability to reverse the action clinging to my flesh while I ignore them all in hopes the risk was worth the reward, A drop off, a steep fall, sand-filled icy water swirling across my vision, muscles freezing up while you watch, eyes wide, nothing to do but watch as I flail, seemingly having forgotten how to swim, shock overtakes you, leaving me on my own to remember a useful stroke, to swing my limbs into use and push through the sand-filled waves, soon enough, I’m by your side, or perhaps you’re by mine, not that it matters when our heads are above water, our legs moving in familiar circles to remain that way, unforeseen waves rock us to our core, forcing our heads under, only a few seconds without air, enough to instill terror within the both of us, enough to slick our hair back when we find ourselves on the surface, leaving me without bangs you resembling an egg, and us both laughing at the other’s expense |
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Flowers bloom around her. Sunflowers reach upwards towards the bright warm sun. Bees buzz from foxgloves to zinnias to black-eyed susans, searching for sweet nectar. Squirrels chase each other up tree trunks as butterflies — morphos and monarchs alike — fly high, displaying their brightly coloured wings for the world to see. Birds sing cheerful melodies in plump fruit trees. Frogs croak, jumping from lily pad to lily pad. The stream ripples. The grass dances in the wind.
She watches. Not from afar; she’s only a couple of steps away. But it feels like forever. She lives here. In her Opposite Oasis. Where no flowers bloom bright. No bees buzz. No butterflies boast. No birds sing. Life grows where the grass grows. Here, there is no grass. Here, there is no life. Here, there is sand. Dry and hot. The punishing wind blows it into her hair, mouth, eyes, ears, but she doesn’t wipe it away. She is parched, and can barely feel her sandpaper tongue. She is numb, body limp on the sand beneath her. She could pass as dead. Except she’s not. Her eyes are alive. Red-rimmed and broken, heavy and barely blinking. But alive. The gateway to her soul floods with all she has kept locked away for so long. Calmness replaced by fear. Modesty replaced by shame. Love replaced by hate. A silent surrender to the emotions she truly feels. (...) |
Artwork by Elizabeth Todd
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Mirage, by Ivy Janes (12)In the desert, this barren wasteland
There’s little comfort to be found As the sand scalds your feet And the sun scorches above But right beyond where you can reach You see a pool so clear and crystalline Refreshing waters that you know Would quench your every thirst So you trek one hour more Ten, thirty, one hundred steps further Dragging your weary form towards An oasis that just won’t stay in place It’s real, it has to be Or what has all this been for? These days on the brink of collapse Spent moving ever forward? You refuse to let it end here With a fool on their last legs You’ll reach the damned oasis And prove you’ve made no mistake You’ll drink til you’re swollen Until the spoils of your journey Spilling out the corners of your lips Threaten to burst you open And even as the raw skin of your feet stings And the sweat trickles down your face You will forget the desert At last And you will be saved |
Pieces of Paradise, by Julia Janes (10)It was just over the horizon
I could see it Almost feel it The breeze that would break up the humid air The shade that would stop the burning rays of the sun Somewhere to hide To be safe To breathe But I didn’t realize it then Only when it was no longer within reach As it became a thought disappearing into the horizon I realized my mistake As it set into the darkness Leaving only shards of light Fading into shadows I couldn’t help but watch it disappear Trying to take in every last possible detail But all too soon the sky returned to its dark hue Only the stars remained Each one a fragment of a memory Each one a piece of paradise Now I cling to them Desperate to remember To relive To reminisce Because I couldn’t capture it Not until it was too late Now I’ve lost my sanctuary I’ve lost my refuge I’ve lost my home |
Silhouette of illusion, by Amira Omer (10)The pitch black cosmos up above are illuminated by the stars shining so bright
In worn out sandals and soiled clothing, proof of my journey. They are being held by such fine threads, almost giving up I’m giving up I’ve travelled for so long, hand constantly pressed against the restart button I keep going round and round in circles I can't break the cycle, so close to losing hope, My soul can’t take it, my mind can’t take it, my body can no longer take it anymore Please, someone help Help me Someone come to my rescue and be my hero, my light in the darkness, my saviour Someone liberate me from this recurring, haunting nightmare Someone, please, anyone…. Wait, who are you… Someone has come??… Oh dear lord, someone came! A source of life after searching for so long I drag my decaying feet across the freezing grains of sand And I breath heavily Step by step, I’m getting closer to you It’s you I’ve been waiting so long, heaven on earth Oh dear lord, someone actually came Please come to me, I’m reaching out to you My oasis, my safespace, my refuge I’m reaching out, please grab my hand Wait, where are you? Where have you gone… WHERE HAVE YOU GONE? Why are you gone? I need you back Please come back Don’t leave me alone To rot under the pitch black cosmos Artwork by Julia Janes |
Do You Copy? by Milana Wheeler (10)Six people run into a massive cavern with stalactites dripping water. The path where they came from is blocked by the rocks and debris. There is a large river, ebbing out into a wide, slow moving channel, before narrowing back down into a tunnel that isn’t even big enough to reach the smallest member’s thigh at the end of the cavern. There is a smattering of rocks near the entrance to the cave that one could theoretically use to cross said river, requiring they had a surplus of skill or stupidity. Bugs that seem just divorced of fireflies keep a consistent light of the cavern. Thick stalks of some kind of bracken glowed with luminescent bulbs at the end. Pale mice with bloody pink eyes nibbled on the low hanging fruit. The group of newcomers, six people in identical orange hazmat suits of various height and build, had gray gas masks covering their faces. They all take out their walkie talkies from their pockets and fiddle with the dial on the side, tuning in to Channel Six. MIC#1: (beep) …Well, that happened. Everyone, come in. Over. MIC#2: Copy that. Thank god for this place. How’d we even find it between all the running and screaming? Over. MIC#4: Copy. Four calls to Two, it was in the ‘Don’t Bother’ section of the topography files. Over. MIC#2: Two calls to Four, I take back what I said about this place, we’re doomed. Over. MIC#3: 10-4. Three calls to Four. Of course you’d bother reading the ‘Don’t Bother’ section. Over. MIC#4: Four calls to Three. In my defense, I was bored and we aren’t allowed cellular devices. Four calls to Two. It’s either be doomed alive in a cave that’s actually very pleasant, if I do say so myself, or be doomed dead in a pile of rocks. Over. MIC#5: 10-4. Thank you, Four. I like not being dead. How long do you think we’ll be stuck here? Over. MIC#2: Two to Five. Might be forever. Over. MIC#1: Record amount of time to make me regret calling everyone in, great job. One calls to Two, please stop being dramatic, it’s freaking me out. One calls to Four, good thinking with the cave, I also like not being dead. One call to Six, do you copy? Over. (...) |
Home, by Owen Barker (10) |
My Oasis, by Callie Blasutig (10) |
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This is home.
The sunlight dancing across a crystalline pool, A gentle breeze rustles the palm fronds, The hot sand under my paws, This is home. The dull tapping of a beak on cactus, The long-eared fox slinking towards me, I bury myself in the hot sand, hoping it doesn’t hear me, This is home. The wind picks up, sending sand whirling through the air, A dark wall approaches, a wall of sand, come to swallow all, My burrow, my only refuge, This is home. The sand shakes above my head, threatening me, Threatening to smother me, fill my lungs, The winds and earth seem alive, bent on my destruction, This is home. The sand above me is swept away, taken by the storm, The earth slips away under me, I’m aloft, my hurtling through the air, Where is home? The sand grains pelt me like a flurry of needles, My limp body, tossed by the wind, slammed against the ground, The sand fills my ears, my eyes, my lungs. Darkness. There is no home anymore. |
My oasis is beautiful.
Spring’s shoots shine like emeralds. Crisp, cool air whispers through the warm water Whose cerulean surface shimmers under the sun. My oasis is my escape. Here, the vegetation remains viridescent, The breeze never ceases. The lake stays still as ice. My oasis is perfect. Outside, the world warps. A cacophony of constant chaos, Where green crumbles to grey, And tornadoes tear through the trying terrain, And the dried ground starves for the tiniest taste of liquid, Every crook and cranny encrusted in clay. So stay with me. Submerse yourself in suspense, Here in my oasis. Portrait Of A Traveller, by Rose Berube (10)The sun beats down, hot, merciless. The sands shift beneath his feet as he stumbles through the desert. He trips, once, twice, but rights himself each time—he can’t fall now, or he’ll never get up. All the moisture in his body is long lost to exertion and scorching heat, but to stop moving would mean certain death.
He only realizes where he is when the sand beneath him abruptly transitions from sunny to shaded. For the first time in hours, he looks up—forces his blurring, burning eyes to focus—and almost falls to his knees right then and there. Thank God. A circle of trees with green leaves like blots of ink against the pale sand, and in the middle of them all (thank God, thank God) an expanse of rippling, blue-black water. It takes all his strength to stumble the few yards left between him and the little pond; once he’s there, his knees give out. He cups his hands and lifts them to his face, drinking deep. His beard gets wet. The water is lukewarm, tepid, gritty. He doesn’t care. |
Learning To Love, by Maja Kolakovic (10) |
Kindness is not Azonic, by Ishana Aidroos (10) |
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For a while, I’ve been trying to understand human nature
Wondering what causes desolation, I would feel things vicariously I recall thinking that seclusion was impermanent That there is always room to heal Instead of giving in, I fought a little I turned my light on and wrote a few lines I thought of you Attempting to maintain a stolid demeanor, You would struggle to feign indifference I grew accustomed to transient touches, And a body in desuetude Though instead of giving in, I fought a little Do you wonder if others feel to the same degree? We all gaze at identical portraits Though optical deformities Persistently divide us Coveting something other than captivity I’d peer at the horizon in wondrance Praising our exploits Searching for solidarity Telling myself that Though unity remains a foreign concept We will have to reach it eventually I had written things about credence Wondering if faith was salvageable I’ve been trying to understand how desolation is so universally human While conceptualizing some sort of solace You can wonder what it’s like to be loved Just as we can ask ourselves What it’s like to be accepted by the world We can wonder if people feel things with the severity that we do And what the determinant of loathing is For a while, I’ve been trying to understand human nature I told myself chemical imbalances were the cause of desolation I would feel things and react accordingly While maintaining a stolid demeanor, You would find it easy to feign indifference I am accustomed to transient touches And a body in desuetude Though instead of giving in, I recall reaching for an opportunity to heal Affirming that seclusion was permanent I had known my faith was unsalvageable Though instead of giving in, I wrote with the last will I had preserved Gazing on the portrait with solemnity Picturing unification I turned my light on and wrote this Seeing how pain and love amalgamate in my responses And in the faces of others I have just begun to understand what it means To accept desolation as a part of human nature I was programmed to disregard the optical deformities I would feel things and React accordingly. Artwork by Maja Kolakovic
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It’s ironic,
The oasis we live in. Some places grow trees, Others grow nothing. Some have water, Others have sand. So many imbalances. It’s ironic. We’re hedonic. Seeking out everything pleasant, Enjoying all that we have And all that we want. We turn a blind eye to the desert, Look the other way and smile. Smile at our luscious oasis. We’re hedonic. To us, they’re laconic. Using very few words Which are muffled and silenced By us. Yet we blame the oasis winds And the tweeting birds. We can’t hear their desert cries. To us, they’re laconic. We act aphonic, Voiceless. We hear their screams And whisper back, Too selfish. We don’t acknowledge it. We don’t raise our voices. We act aphonic. It’s not azonic. Oasis and desert, There are no borders. Caring Helping Listening Loving It’s not azonic. Kindness is not azonic. It’s ironic, The oasis we live in. An abundance of greenery, An abundance of life. Fresh water streams, Skyscraper-tall trees, Animal families, Peace. It’s ironic. They live in the desert Yet we are still greedy. Yet we are still ungrateful. Yet we take advantage, Selfishly keeping the oasis ourselves. Not sharing. Not helping. It's ironic. All it takes is a single seed To grow an oasis Amidst the desert sand, Yet the imbalances remain. It’s ironic. Paddling The Oasis, by Divya Prakash (10)The little crescent canoe wobbles as I sit at its stern, the bow lifting to the cloud streaked sky. Each step is gingerly placed. A breeze whips by, but my plump orange vest hugs me tight. I breathe in the air of the morning, golden ores breaking the still surface. Teal ripples cascade and fade. I row toward the orange sun, my ores stirring its rippling reflection. Palms dance on the shores. I smile. Paradise. Each stroke a beat in the song of the oasis. Perfection. As if life was but a dream. The sun and moon come and go, day after day the ores paddle forth. I stay in beat, I keep pushing eastward. As time goes on, the water grows darker, the teal glows duller, and the palms lean low. I feel alone atop the water. My heart begins to bear a weight, the burden of each sweep of the ores a searing pain within my arms. My paddles are weaker, I slow. It rocks the boat, but I carry on, afraid to fall, afraid to lose it all. The little boat waddles onward, swinging back and forth. As though it were a teeter totter, it sways from side to side. My stomach begins to feel a weight as each tip seems a horror. Water spills over the wooden rim. The canoe sways, a puddle sloshes under my feet. One night, my canoe goes from smile to frown, it topples below the ripples. I gasp and push my hands up toward the sunlight, in hopes to reach the surface. Something holds me down, the weight I carry deep inside. I held it with me all along to keep my boat atop the water. Anything to not risk the fall. I did it all to stay afloat, only to lose it all. Now it held me like an anchor, pulling me further down. My desperate nylon friend held tight, pushing me up to safety. My golden oars sunk deep below, hitting the sandy floor. That’s it, all I had to do was simply let it go. |
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The carcasses were kept warm by the sunlit rocks on the overhang, overlooking the light running off the ripples of the only fresh water for miles with cold, dead eyes.
They were scrappy little things; a couple of hyenas who wanted to beat the others to a drink and then stalk back into the tall grass and kill whatever dopey, bleary-eyed desert mice had just drank their fill. Unfortunately, the lionesses in charge of guarding the spring had just seen a new litter: small bundles of fur that could only eat the same doomed desert mice. So, the hyenas lay dead, displayed at the top plateau of rock to ward off anyone else who might go after the drinking mice, for they were already spoken for. The lionesses had the first sips, water dripping from their bloody snouts into the clear pool. It would be refilled by rainwater as the dirt and filth from animals sunk into the clay insulation of the spring, but whoever drank after the lionesses still had to pray that the hyenas were relatively clean. The vultures–these bald, scaling creatures of the sky who knew they would get first pick of anyone who disobeyed the lionesses–started snapping at the hyenas, violently tearing off their fur with sharp beaks and swallowing their eyes whole. They descended upon the pool, screeching at the poor animals who were just trying to get a drink. They taunted and they pecked, begging the scuttling mice and the unseeing snakes to step out of line. They had already eaten their fill, but vultures didn't earn their reputations by being easily satisfied. (...) The Eye, by Daya Prakash (10)Sunlight spills from the cerulean sky As I lay on melting sands below; A drifting, rhythmic lullaby From frothy waves, their ebb and flow. I feel the sea, its misty air, The shimmering dew on fronds. Seagulls scan for marine fare, Diving into waters beyond. But whispers simmer from the trees: Their fallen fruit and creaking trunks Muted by the salty breeze, And tides that harbour driftwood chunks. I stand to watch a promenade Of scurrying crabs, marching sideways Deep inland, towards the shade, To spurn the far-off horizon’s haze For a wall rises at that line A wall that’d dwarf the tallest pine. Into the heavens, a creeping vine; I see it staring as the seabirds whine. Looming darkness will circle the shore, A hole above, where the sun can pour Desperate rays through a closing door Before thundering clouds inflame uproar: I see the glare, Electric blue, The streaks that flare, The storms that brew; I see the turmoil, The raging gusts, The clouds that coil, The hail, robust; I see the winds, The torrents of rain, The blinding lightning The striking pain-- So I close my eyes. And sink back into the sands, Bathing under azure skies, In rolling waves, I wash my hands And float on a raft of soothing lies. Screw the crabs and their anabasis For this is my fleeting oasis. |
Artwork by Milana Wheeler
Silence, by Owen Barker (10)Silence. Silence is a desolate plain. Red sun, beating down on scorched sand. In the shadows, hidden creatures lurk, Things with too many eyes and too many legs. Already, the vultures circle, Worst of all, it's silent. You wish you could hear something, anything, Something to assure you that you’re still alive. You could try to scream, try to make a noise, But the silence is an unspoken vow, The desert doesn’t take kindly to those who break it. And so the silence endures. Foxes prowl, light steps barely touching the sand, Ahead, a cactus, or is it a tree? Sunlight bathes you, boiling your mind, Sand drifts over the dunes, held by the wind, The wind is slow, the sun so hot. Both observe your struggle in silence. Colours swim on the horizon, Green, blue, an oasis, water. The eye of the storm bleeding you dry. Finally, your weak legs can rest, Your throat will feel water again, It’s been days, months. Years? You let out a cry of joy, breaking into a run, Falling, you begin crawling, desperately reaching out. The wind wails, pelting you with sand, For you have disturbed the deadly tranquility. Colours fade on the horizon, disappearing. You scream, but no sound escapes your parched throat. Silence returns. The War Against The Desert, by Amira Omer (10)The war against the desert raged on for countless weeks
At this point, resisting is useless I have tried over and over again With unwavering resolve Marching towards my final destination Where water and life can be found I need to reach it The oasis Then, I’ll finally achieve freedom The perfect place of refuge A safe space, shelter, a sanctuary |